contra the herd

So I havenapos;t quite figured out what it means to be that thing it means when you have a boy sleeping in your bed whose traveled across the world to be with you. Yeah. Still working that one out.

In other news: Lawrence is finally here Wont go into much detail (cc: above) but suffice it to say Iapos;m thrilled (and strangely nervous) that heapos;s here. Also, frustrated because heapos;s been here just over 24 hours now and though we had a good afternoon, I feel like maybe I was a bit selfish in wanting him here with me. But heapos;s my boyfriend; selfishly wanting to spend time with him... Not sure thatapos;s something I can be faulted for. Except now I have way more work to do in school than I ever thought I would (or ever thought Iapos;d actually honestly do, at least) and Iapos;ve spent the last two evenings doing homework while he sits patiently by and quietly observes. Or passes out. One of the two. And though it shouldnapos;t, it makes me feel horrifically guilty. I just want him to have a good time and though he says he doesnapos;t mind and that heapos;s just happy to be here with me, I still feel guilty, justified or not.

Why canapos;t I just be happy? And how can I get around paying taxes on emotions?
contra the herd, contra the heard newsletter, contra the heard investment letter, contra the heard.